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"someday you'll remember.. dancing in september.."

2006-10-02T19:29:00.000-07:00

Pagmasdan ang ulan...

-kanina pa, pagang-paga na nga ang mga mata ko kakatanaw.. may tinatanaw.. matatanaw kaya?

Pagmasdan ang dilim..

-dilim sa labas.. dilim sa loob.. sa'n pa ba makakahanap ng liwanag? kung pati pores mo'y niyakap na ng uwak..?

Kasabay ng ulan..

-ang pagpatak ng pawis ko.. hindi dahil sa mainit, kundi dahill sa kaba.. isang matinding kaba.. kinakabahan kung baabalik ka pa..

Maari ba'ng minsan pa'y..

-wala nang 'minsan'.. wala nang mangyayaring 'minsan'.. dahil di na maibabalik ang panahong nagdaan..

Buhos na ulan..

-pero kung sakali sana'y dahan-dahan.. lunod na 'ko sa pangako, basang basa na sa dusa.. wag mo nang palalain pa..

Tuwing umuulan at kapiling ka..

-kailan kaya?.. pa ba?.. ayoko na.

before i raised my fist up, i read this..

2006-09-17T12:32:00.000-07:00

“I’m going to tell you a story,” said Zedka. “A powerful wizard, whowanted to destroy an entire kingdom, placed a magic potion in the well from which all the inhabitants drank. Whoever drank that water would go mad.
“The following morning, the whole population drank from the well and they all went mad, apart from the king and his family, who had a well set aside for them alone, which the magician had not managed to poison. The king was worried and tried to control the population by issuing a series of edicts governing security and public health. The policemen and the inspectors, however, had also drunk the poisoned water, and they thought the king’s decision were absurd and resolved to take no notice of them.
“When the inhabitants of the kingdom heard the decrees, they became convinced that the king had gone mad and was now giving nonsensical orders. They marched on the castle and called for his abdication
“In despair, the king prepared to step down from the throne, but the queen stopped him, saying, ‘Let us go Drink from the communal well. Then we will be the same as them.’
“And that was what they did: The king and the queen drank the water of madness and immediately began talking nonsense. Their subjects repented at once; now that the king was displaying such wisdom, why not allow him to continue ruling the country?
“The country continued to live in peace, although its inhabitants behaved very differently from those of its neighbors. And the kling was able to govern until the end of his days.”

- Zedka, Veronika Decides to Die by Paulo Coelho

PARTY!!! PARTY!!!

2006-08-18T10:22:00.000-07:00

OFFICIAL INVITATION FOR CYNOS' PAPER ANNIV!!!

2006-08-08T04:00:00.000-07:00

may hiwaga sa loob ng ilaw..
may pangakong naghihintay sa likod ng makinang na kulay..
may hiwaga..
may pangako..

sandwich,vanity,sunglasses,bandana,pen, life.

2006-05-07T13:19:00.000-07:00

i woke up one day sandwiched by the thick weaves of linen and the stinky foam that sent me to neverland a million times over as the most powerful creation in the night makes its presence felt. my senses started to speak all at once.. but i could only afford to obey one. so i pushed my eyes open, but as soon as i was able to determine the colors, i realized that i have been cradling Neil and Bob in my arms. i tried to recall the dream.. trying to remember the scenes.. if i really used the two to wipe his wets.. those wets that i can never deny.. those wets that i wished to have left evidences on my sheets.. but must i thank barney for that beaming smile that tells me how good a dreamer i am. a dream as powerful as mine can devour the hopes of an innocent. a dream as powerful as mine can ruin an eternity.
the clock says 8:45. i can already feel my professor's vibrations behind the heavenly green walls of my prison like dormitory. no time to experience necessary vanity. a pair of sunglasses and a bandana will do.
at 8:57, i started my journey to hell.
i came 3 minutes late.. which equals to a 5 point deduction.
i started pouring knowledge onto my paper.. just let the pen slide til it runs out of life.
life..
life..
life..
it was me who was only an inch to losing life..

***a, next tym na kasunod.nagdugo ilong ko***

nagbabalik..!

2006-02-10T01:25:00.000-08:00

matapos ang aking pananahimik...

eto nanaman ako..!!!

magpopost nanaman ng kung anu-ano..!

ahahahahaha!!!

oy, salamat nga pla kay bulitas.. :)

hakbang papaawas ng impyerno

2005-10-05T00:19:00.000-07:00

tatlong pagsusulit.
dalawang pagsasalaysay.
isang oras na tulog.
kumusta naman tayo..?

2005-09-30T08:09:00.000-07:00

minsan talaga nakakapika na..kala mo swabe na lahat..pero may biglang darating na magpapahyper sa mga kuto mo..mapupunta energy mo sa roots ng hair mo..tama di ba..?tataas presyon mo..kukulo laway mo..magkakaroon ng malfunction sa katawan mo..titirik mata mo..maninigas ka..sisigaw ka..pero alaws makakarinig..maglulumpasay ka..tapos..manginginig ka..tapos..mawawalan ka ng malay..tapos..magmumuka kang tanga..tapos..tapos na..naulol ka na..tama di ba..?

2005-08-28T09:36:00.000-07:00

ang hirap mag-isip ng bagay na ayaw mo namang isipin, o alamin ang bagay na ayaw mo namang malaman, lalo na ang isulat ang ayaw mo namang sulatin. nakakabanas pero kelangan, mahalaga kapalit nyan.. nakakapika na talaga pero alaws kang ma-do kahit na over flowing na ang dugo sa ilong mo at namumutok na ang mga ugat mo sa utak.. ganyan ang nangyayari kapag pinagpilitan mo ang sarili mo sa bagay na gusto mo na sa pakiramdam mo ay tama sa iyo, ngunit unti-unti mong malalaman man ayaw naman pala nito sayo, at manlulumo ka na lang at uupo sa isang tabi, titingin sa kawalan, magbubuntong hininga, hahawiin ang buhok palikod, magmumura, at panghihinayangan ang oras na ginugol mo sa pagpapakadalubhasa at pagpapanggap na kaya mo ngunit sa totoo ay isa ka lang mumurahin at low-qualityng yero..
pero maya-maya ay tatayo ka rin, mgtetext sa tropa mo, ilalahad ang drama mo, at bilang ganti, papayuhan ka nitong tropa mong ito at mabubuhayan ka ng loob..
so go-go ka ulit..
after ilang oras o araw, ganun nanaman ulit..
sinong ginagago mo ngayon?

2005-07-04T07:20:00.000-07:00

di na ata ako tatantanan ng mga masasamang spirito..

lagi silang nasa tabi ko..

laging bumubulong..

laging nangangalabit..

kailangang mawala sila..

pero paano?

parte na sila ng buhay ko..

kung di dahil sa kanila, laos ako..

haay..

beer lang katapat nito..

2005-03-06T20:02:00.000-08:00

sa pagda-download ko ng tabs ng isang kanta ng eheads, nabasa ko 'to...
"Life is not what you find, it is what you create. You are born with two things- existence and oppurtunity, And these are the raw materials out of which you can make a SUCCESSFUL LIFE!!!"
onga naman...

2005-03-03T07:34:00.000-08:00

Don't ask me what I want to express with my pictures, ask yourself,what they mean to you!
-Michael Quack

2005-03-03T07:21:00.000-08:00

We must never forget that art is not a form of propaganda, it is aform of truth.
-John Fitzgerald Kennedy

orinoco flow

2005-03-03T06:55:00.000-08:00

Let me sail, let me sail, let the Orinoco flow.Let me reach, let me beach on the shores of Tripoli.Let me sail, let me sail, let me crash upon your shore.Let me reach, let me beach far beyond the Yellow Sea.De de de de de...Sailway,...From Bissau to Palau in the shade of Avalon.From Fiji to Tiree and the isles of Ebony.From Peru to Cebu, feel the power of Babylon.From Bali to Cali, far beneath the Coral Sea.De de de de de...Sail away...Turn it up...Adieu, ooh.From the North to the South, Ebudau unto Khartoum.From the deep Sea of Clouds to the Island of the Moon.Carry me on the waves to the lands I've never seen.Carry me on the lands I've never seen.We can sail, with the Orinoco flow.Wecan sail away...We can steer, we can near with Rob Dickins at the wheel.We can sigh, say goodbyeRoss and his dependencies.We can sail away

2005-03-01T19:25:00.000-08:00

ayan na ang realidad.. kinakaibigan na niya tayo.. ang swabe niya umentra 'no?.. nagpapahirap pero may saya.. niloloko niya tayo.. magaling siya mambola.. ginagawa niya tayong gago.. tapos kapag nakuha niya tayo, saka niya tayo dahan-dahang ilulubog.. pero tutulungan din naman niya tayong umahon.. magulo.. nakakasira ng ulo..

2005-02-22T06:38:00.000-08:00

Must of been mid afternoon
I could tell by how far the child's shadow stretched out and
He walked with a purpose
In his sneakers, down the street
He had, many questions
Like children often do
He said,
"Tell me all your thoughts on God?"
"Tell me am I very far?"
Must of been late afternoon
On our way the sun broke free of the clouds
We count only blue cars
Skip the cracks, in the street
And ask many questions
Like children often do
We said,
"Tell me all your thoughts on God?
"'Cause I would really like to meet her.
And ask her why we're who we are.
Tell me all your thoughts on God,
Cause I am on my way to see her.
So tell me am I very far -
Am I very far now?"
It's getting cold picked up the pace
How our shoes make hard noises in this place
Our clothes are stained
We pass many, cross eyed people
And ask many questions
Like children often do
"Tell me all your thoughts on God?
'Cause I would really like to meet her.
And ask her why we're who we are.
Tell me all your thoughts on God?
'Cause I am on my way to see her.
So tell me am I very far?"
Am I very far now
Am I very far now
Am I very far now
-Counting Blue Cars, Dishwalla

saglit lang

2005-02-22T03:52:00.000-08:00

paglakbayin ang diwa..
paliparin at hayaan magliwaliw sa kawalan..
hinga..
buga..

batak

2005-02-22T03:04:00.000-08:00

nasayang nanaman bente ko
ewan..
di ko alam kung ako pa ba ang nasa katawan ko
o baka ibang elemento
minsan akala ko nagsasalita na ko
yun pala jingle ko lang..
minsan akala ko kumakanta ko
yun pala hikab ko lang..
minsan akala ko nagalit ako
yun pala nasamid lang..
minsan magninilay-nilay ako
susumahin ang mga kinilos ko
tapos maiisip ko..
hindi pala akin yun..
akala ko lang..
gago!
nasasaniban ba ko?
o ako ang sumasanib sa elementong ginagambala ko?